Dear Diary,
Mom was a huge comfort after everything that happened with Rory.
She was obviously surprised when I told her that I was pregnant and that the baby’s father turned out to be married. But she was also very supportive. She told me that she knew I could do anything I set my mind too and that I would be a great mother. She also recommended that I channel all of my feelings into writing a sad book.
“I know you wanted to focus on writing children’s books but trust me when I say that writing books based on your feelings can be very therapeutic.”
To add to my misery I got a call letting me know that my cousins Robin and Reagan had both passed away. They were much older than I am so I didn’t know them well, but they were still family and it is sad that they are gone.
I decided to take mom’s advice and I poured all of my feelings into writing a sad book. It was my 4th book and the 104th book so far for the family.
I am not going to lie, this pregnancy has been rough. I am nausous 24/7.
I am constantly running to the bathroom to throw-up.
Of course I still have student papers to grade.
I have also been researching parenting. Not only does it help increase my Research and Debate skill which I need for my next promotion it is also preparing me for motherhood.
I don’t want Dinah to feel left out once the baby arrives, so I have been trying to spend as much time with her as possible.
Dear Diary,
I am in the process of writing my second sad book, but this time I am struggling to find the words to express how I am feeling.
It should have been a happy day as I was promoted to Department Head, but sadly I couldn’t focus on my success.
While I was at work I received word that my mom had passed away. I can’t believe she is gone and that she won’t be here to meet her grandchild.
All I wanted to do is stay in bed and cry.
Eventually though I got up and found the words to express what I was felling. I wrote my fifth book which turned out to be my first best seller.
I realized that I still hadn’t hung my portrait in the library. Mom used her graduation photo from college. My grandfather and great-grandmother used a selfie. I wanted something different. I had Robb come over and take some photos of me.
I had my favorite shot framed to hang in the office.
One afternoon I was busy grading but my back was really bothering me. I figured I had just been sitting to long.
I got up to stretch only to have my water break and the labor pains start.
They were so intense. I had never felt anything like it.
I admit I was scared. I always figured that I would have my mom and boyfriend/husband with me when I had my first child. But here I was doing it all by myself.
I made my way to the hospital and got checked in.
The doctor was really nice and managed to calm all my nerves.
I gave birth do a beautiful baby girl. I named her Diana after Diana Barry from Anne of Green Gables.
I can’t believe I am a mother. I just love Diana so much.